7 years ago.....

I read a blog today about guys at the fag end of their college days. A lot of emotions expressed in a lot of beautiful words.

That got me thinking about my own last few college days. I wondered what it felt like 7 years ago. What it felt like to know life will never be the same again.....I hardly remember a thing. I can hardly recollect a single one of those days. I can hardly remember that last day when I saw my pals of four years in the college that one last time. I am sure I would have wanted to hug my closest friends....shed a tear or two....I am sure of that.....but I hardly remember anything that went on....it is as though everything has been wiped out of the memory.....

Now, I wonder why? Why was it that I chose to (or just plain) forget everything?

Was it:

• a kind of numbness?
• a kind of forced acceptance....
• a rude shock?
• the hope that things would be better now...
• the bold facade posing to the new life ahead of me?
• the anticipation of sweeter things to come?
• the maturity as I was stepping into another phase of my life too?
• the scary feeling of having to enter two phases of life at once?
• because of the rant and rave going on within?
• because I had met the man of my life?
• or just plain confusion?

I will never know.....for it has been 7 long years....so much has happened within the short period of 7 years..its hard to remember anything at all....

I also wonder, if I never wanted to remember anything at all..........was my memory loss intentional?