That got me thinking about my own last few college days. I wondered what it felt like 7 years ago. What it felt like to know life will never be the same again.....I hardly remember a thing. I can hardly recollect a single one of those days. I can hardly remember that last day when I saw my pals of four years in the college that one last time. I am sure I would have wanted to hug my closest friends....shed a tear or two....I am sure of that.....but I hardly remember anything that went on....it is as though everything has been wiped out of the memory.....
Now, I wonder why? Why was it that I chose to (or just plain) forget everything?
Was it:
- a kind of numbness?
- a kind of forced acceptance....
- a rude shock?
- the hope that things would be better now...
- the bold facade posing to the new life ahead of me?
- the anticipation of sweeter things to come?
- the maturity as I was stepping into another phase of my life too?
- the scary feeling of having to enter two phases of life at once?
- because of the rant and rave going on within?
- because I had met the man of my life?
- or just plain confusion?
I will never know.....for it has been 7 long years....so much has happened within the short period of 7 years..its hard to remember anything at all....
I also wonder, if I never wanted to remember anything at all..........was my memory loss intentional?
