Yearn....

If yearning for you is wrong,
Then my heart knows not what is right,
I dream myself to sleep,
Every second of the night.

What is there to do?
What is there to say?
I know I can't have you 
But still I dream away.

I'd walk a thousand miles,
To see those beautiful midnight smiles,
I'd shed those million tears again,
And go through all the pain,
Maybe give a thousand nights' sleep,
Just to look into those eyes so deep,
But what is there to feel?  
When I know I can’t have you  

If you were to be,
You would be my dream come true
I wished upon a star for you 
But what am I to know?
What he had in store
For me, for you,
For the life that awaited us,
Which I now know will remain a dream,
But still I give myself away

My dreams, My Love,
That one part of me,
Stand frozen,
Waiting to be showered,
Waiting to be professed,
Ah, My little Angel,
Its so painful,
To know how much I yearn for you,
And that I can never have you.

Profound loss....

I wish you never came into my life,

Even though you brought in a lot of smiles, a lot of meaning to my days,

You filled my heart with a kind of warmth that made me mend my crude ways,

You lent me a shoulder to lean on and an ear to pour my woes,

You became a treasured friend, to whom I had a lot to owe.

Then came the thunder and lightning...

Whence began the parting,

Exodus made me feel tormented by your mere presence,

Made me wonder what is driving us to do this, lose our essence,

I wonder what was happening inside you,

I wonder why I felt so blue,

I wonder what you ached to tell me, 

I wonder if it would have changed the course of our lives, if we had paused to see!

Eventually, I wished to get away from you,

Aware, that, in the process I was aching much more than you,

Ensuing days proved the torment was much more tolerable,

A new life meant,

A new flavor of same torment!

A sadness so profound,

That made me forget of life's sweet sound.

Without much ado, I made my peace with life, 

Dealt my fate with a iron hand, 

When what I needed most was the soothing voice of a special friend.

How I wished you beside me,

When I struggled to acheive what everyone said was not for me,

How I wished you were at my bedside,

When I saw our cute little dream baby lying by my side,

I hoped you were leading a better life than mine,

With a heart full of love and a career that was fine,

I hoped you were happy and contented with an overflowing purse,

and that you remembered me, even if it were just to curse.

I wish God had let us be,

He had other plans for us you see,

He brought us together once again,

It was a miracle, when it felt we were never far away,

We picked up right from where we had left!

Just when the sun started to shine,

We had to part, but its fine,

As long as this will not be a very long hiatus yet again,

When all our efforts to see each other will go in vain.....