Conversation........

Phone rings.....

Me: Yeah

D: Busy?

Me: Not really...

D: Listen, there is a new Italian Restaurant in town

Me: *Grins* Where? Where?

D: *reads out some excerpts about asparagus and fondue**

Me: Ooooooooooooh *Droooooooooool* .....so when are we going?

D: Oh that? An average meal for two costs &*^% so....

Me: So? *Raises an eyebrow*

D: Never........

Me: "Why then did u call me Buster?"

D: ***Evil Grin and high pitched laugh***

Lazy day...stupid post.....Wish I could be at home....

Anger....

Yesterday, I was skimming through a magazine and read an article on how to control your anger. The author rightly said, anger is like fire, it burns the source faster than the target. The author went on to say that you should forgive the person who has hurt you and maybe write a forgiveness letter. If you are not up to posting it, just burn it. Once done, you will see your anger melt away.

I wonder if it is that simple?

I have always had those internal conversations about my anger. I always end up telling myself, I am not an angel to forgive and forget. I am, but a human being who has been hit where it hurts the most. I believe if you cannot forget the wrong doing you can never never forgive the person who wronged.

I can never forget the tears that used to well up in my eyes during the days which were supposed to be the happiest in my whole life. I was so full of happiness having got what I wanted the most. All the happiness was washed away in the tears that I shed. I still wonder what I had done to prompt people to do what they did. Everything came as a rude shock and killed my self-confidence and my self-respect, the two things I valued most in all my life. How can I ever forgive them? How can I ever forget those days, when I cried unendingly for no fault of mine? How can I ever forget the fact that it took me years to rebuild what I had lost? More so, a part of it which is gone for ever?

In hindsight, everything worked out as I had planned. There was no reason for them to hurt me the way they did. I was blessed with all that I yearned for. Except for those days, hours and minutes that I cried and did not smile at my happiness, I haven't lost much. Anger of course has burnt me from inside, but as far as I am concerned, it has only burnt the immense respect I had for them. On a positive note, I did gain a lot. I discovered the immense potential I had hitherto unknown to me. Now. I know, I can come out of any number of rough periods unscathed.

Madame Dorothée Deluzy "It is easier to forgive an enemy than a friend"

Poem....

This is dedicated to my "eyes", without whom I am blind...
This is for the two strings that tug at my heart......
This is for the two people because of whom I feel alive, loved and wanted....
This is for them who make my life worth living......

Each New Day .......

At the beginning of each new day
you walk into my mind.

You're the first thing I think of ,as
I rise to start my day.

Morning thoughts of you
bring a soft smile to my
face, with joy and happiness to
stay within my heart throughout my day.

It's you that gives me a sense of belonging
and the feeling of being loved and wanted ,as
my heart overflows with my love for you.

I hold each thought of you close to my heart
and every dream we share
is captured in my very soul.

Your love brings
fulfillment and contentment to me.

I start each day whispering to you.

Wherever you may go today, my love
whatever you may do
if you stop and think of me know that
I'm thinking of you too because,
I love you so.