Yesterday, I was skimming through a magazine and read an article on how to control your anger. The author rightly said, anger is like fire, it burns the source faster than the target. The author went on to say that you should forgive the person who has hurt you and maybe write a forgiveness letter. If you are not up to posting it, just burn it. Once done, you will see your anger melt away.
I wonder if it is that simple?
I have always had those internal conversations about my anger. I always end up telling myself, I am not an angel to forgive and forget. I am, but a human being who has been hit where it hurts the most. I believe if you cannot forget the wrong doing you can never never forgive the person who wronged.
I can never forget the tears that used to well up in my eyes during the days which were supposed to be the happiest in my whole life. I was so full of happiness having got what I wanted the most. All the happiness was washed away in the tears that I shed. I still wonder what I had done to prompt people to do what they did. Everything came as a rude shock and killed my self-confidence and my self-respect, the two things I valued most in all my life. How can I ever forgive them? How can I ever forget those days, when I cried unendingly for no fault of mine? How can I ever forget the fact that it took me years to rebuild what I had lost? More so, a part of it which is gone for ever?
In hindsight, everything worked out as I had planned. There was no reason for them to hurt me the way they did. I was blessed with all that I yearned for. Except for those days, hours and minutes that I cried and did not smile at my happiness, I haven't lost much. Anger of course has burnt me from inside, but as far as I am concerned, it has only burnt the immense respect I had for them. On a positive note, I did gain a lot. I discovered the immense potential I had hitherto unknown to me. Now. I know, I can come out of any number of rough periods unscathed.
Madame Dorothée Deluzy "It is easier to forgive an enemy than a friend"
I wonder if it is that simple?
I have always had those internal conversations about my anger. I always end up telling myself, I am not an angel to forgive and forget. I am, but a human being who has been hit where it hurts the most. I believe if you cannot forget the wrong doing you can never never forgive the person who wronged.
I can never forget the tears that used to well up in my eyes during the days which were supposed to be the happiest in my whole life. I was so full of happiness having got what I wanted the most. All the happiness was washed away in the tears that I shed. I still wonder what I had done to prompt people to do what they did. Everything came as a rude shock and killed my self-confidence and my self-respect, the two things I valued most in all my life. How can I ever forgive them? How can I ever forget those days, when I cried unendingly for no fault of mine? How can I ever forget the fact that it took me years to rebuild what I had lost? More so, a part of it which is gone for ever?
In hindsight, everything worked out as I had planned. There was no reason for them to hurt me the way they did. I was blessed with all that I yearned for. Except for those days, hours and minutes that I cried and did not smile at my happiness, I haven't lost much. Anger of course has burnt me from inside, but as far as I am concerned, it has only burnt the immense respect I had for them. On a positive note, I did gain a lot. I discovered the immense potential I had hitherto unknown to me. Now. I know, I can come out of any number of rough periods unscathed.
Madame Dorothée Deluzy "It is easier to forgive an enemy than a friend"
1 comment:
I beleive your anger is justified...the days that were lost were the cream of our lives. The people who are responsible for this huge loss are so much our own(hamre apne).The consequence being we cannot express our anger and this anger ofcourse burns one from inside. Definitely the tears of pain shed have left grave marks. If not much we should atleast be allowed to keep the agner for ourself.
Looking at the positive note i feel keeping the fire burning has infact lead to the realisation of the inner potential. Why not keep the fire burning use it to lighten up the road ahead us and stop ourself from doing acts that could cause similar loss to our own people(hamare apne)
-uma
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